Category: After it all

The right love, feeling wrong

Last year, I went to therapy. This was definitely not my first time in the chair, but it was the first time I’d ever sought out counselling without a major trigger (eg, when everything imploded with X and my marriage and I was desperate for someone new to cry...

Why do happily married women cheat? Why did I do it?

The more I thought about the kind of hot, bewildering insanity that encompassed me when I became embroiled with X, the more I could not understand it. Even as the months progressed and I moved further away from it, I was obsessed with what I had done and what...

Don’t look back on an affair

Considering that we were residents of a relatively small community, it proved surprisingly easy to avoid X. For almost a full year after I ended our affair, I did not see him in person once. Obviously, I assiduously avoided anywhere I thought I might see him, which helped, but...

Three changes to save a marriage

As time went on and we could see that we had something worth saving, that the marriage could be brought back once more to something that had value for both of us, that we could re-knit our lives together and think about a shared future again, slowly we had...

Feeling some peace again

The last words X spoke aloud to me were “fuck you”, but that was not the last communication from him. He sent me a long email later that day. He berated me extensively for my lack of faith in him. I had never believed him when he told me...